About Me, Inspirational, Life, Prose

Leaning in to Awkward Charm

I consider my awkwardness to be part of my charm. I refer to it as my awkward charm. I think people have many misconceptions about what being awkward means. I defy the definitions given in the Merriam-Webster Dictionary. It doesn’t mean that you lack grace and skill or that you are difficult, its doesn’t mean that you aren’t comfortable with yourself; most often it means the exact opposite. It means you are completely comfortable with yourself, vulnerably showing up and being seen despite what other people think of you and being so, they may find it difficult to understand you. It means that no matter what grace or skill you do or don’t have you own it, you lean in! Its not that you are awkward, its that you don’t conform to what other people except as normal and because of that you make them feel awkward. Continue reading “Leaning in to Awkward Charm”

About Me, Life, Music, Prose

The Metamorphosis of Art

Every artist, no matter the medium inevitably feels tied to their work. However we all also know the feeling of having a project that for all intensive purposes is finished and at the same time we feel it’s never quite done. I have always felt this way, even if I’m happy with the “finished” product. I feel like there is always the opportunity for expansion, sometimes a part 2 or 3 or just another version or maybe a follow up piece that ultimately winds up becoming a series. In the past I have found this to be true when it comes to both my paintings and poetry. When painting it is easy to visualize the distinctions usually because you have to essentially recreate or reinterpret a piece quite physically. For me this always leads to having a series of paintings all different yet somehow all part of the same story. With poetry or any written work however, whether or not put on stage or film the expansion or evolution can take a more subtle route though the destination may change drastically. For instance I’ve found myself having written something and calling it finished but 3 days, 3 months or maybe even 3 years later, coming back to it and finding that I have something more or maybe even a lot different to say. I think this comes with the creative mind usually also being that of an over thinker.

Most recently I found myself making changes to songs I’ve written and thought were complete. Let’s pause there so I can tell you whats going on with me……. Continue reading “The Metamorphosis of Art”

About Me, Life, Music, Prose

The Detachment Realization

I write quite a bit of sad songs, sad love songs in particular which is not news to anyone that knows my music. However I realized recently that I can’t write a reflectively sad song when I’m in the thick of it. I now see that I have to be somewhat emotionally detached from a subject in order to be able to write about it. I am beginning to understand that when I write (songs exclusively this hasn’t been the case with poetry or prose) I do so with “an outsiders perspective” be it literally or even when I am the subject, in the sense that enough time has passed for me to be able to approach the writing process objectively.

I had an inkling that this was the case in 2010 when I realized I had not written a song about a really bad breakup I had years earlier. In this case I hadn’t even written a poem about it. I recall a conversation with my mom about how I thought I could now see the full picture enough to actually write the song. When I finally wrote it, I had this feeling of satisfaction, like it was everything I had to say and it didn’t even make me tear up. A few months later however I was surprisingly able to write a song when my grandfather died, I cried on every line and blurred lots of ink but I completed it in time for his funeral. I didn’t realize it then and honestly I didn’t realize it until a few days ago, but I wrote the song not about how much I’d miss him nor about my feelings but from the perspective of my mother and grandmother. I know now the only reason I was able to write that song was because I did it from “an outsiders perspective”, though done in the moments of experiencing the loss myself. Continue reading “The Detachment Realization”

About Me, Life, Music, Prose

Serendipity – Crazy Coincidence

I really want to share with you all something that I wrote about three years ago. I don’t really know why I never published it, its something that had a bit of a profound effect on me even though seemingly insignificant.  I don’t believe in destiny or fate but this is definitely Serendipity.

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1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident

I just found out that my grandmother was friends with Huey “Piano” Smith and sung with his band in New Orleans. And that she was also friends with Guitar Slim. Then she starts telling me about this song that she helped Guitar Slim write and the story behind it, about a young girl he was seeing despite the fact he was a married man. So she gave me all the juicy details, but she couldn’t remember the name of the song. So in the meantime, while she was trying to remember the name of the song I went on YouTube to play her some of the Huey “Piano” Smith songs I like. Then she asked if I could play some Guitar Slim songs. So I found him and I picked The Things That I Used To Do, since Stevie Ray Vaughan covered it and it happens to be one of my favorites of his. Continue reading “Serendipity – Crazy Coincidence”

About Me, Life, Prose

Loss of a Friend

Years ago I was crazy about this guy he was fun, hilarious, talented and cute, so cute. I still remember the night we met my friend had a crush on his roommate and she brought me along to hang. We were still in high school and these guys were in their early 20’s so we felt so cool. He had a personality that drew me to him instantly and like magic he was drawn to me too. We wound up spending a year and a half ripping and running all over the streets of Los Angeles. He had dreams and passion that even surpassed my own and made me want to be amazing even though he made me feel like I already was. He was the first guy beside my dad to tell me I was beautiful, and I believed him. I still remember the day in 2006 when he told me he had to moved away. I remember him telling me it was temporary. I remember him telling me he would be back, “3 months tops”. I remember the way it felt when he hugged and kissed me for the last time. Continue reading “Loss of a Friend”


June Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for June has been posted, check it out!


Art: Michael Price
Music: Ella Henderson – Yours
Film: Finding Dory
Fashion: Crop Tops
Food: Best Summer Foods
Literature: I Like You Just Fine When You’re Not Around by Ann Wertz Garvin

“There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature.” – Jane Austen novelist


May Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for May has been posted, check it out!


Art: Ray Turner – Painter
Music: Seafret- Wildfire
Film: High-Rise
Fashion: Cute and Comfy Camping Clothes
Food: Camping Food for the Gourmet and the Super Saver
Literature: Brooklyn by Colm Tóibín

“Let us dance in the sun, wearing wild flowers in our hair…” – Susan Polis Schutz poet


April Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for April has been posted, check it out!


Art: Frank Zadlo – artist
Music: John Coltrane & Johnny Hartman – Dedicated To You
Film: The Divergent Series: Allegiant
Fashion: Prints instead of Florals
Food: Spring Salads
Literature: The Descendants by Kaui Hart Hemmings

“I remember my childhood names for grasses and secret flowers. I remember where a toad may live and what time the birds awaken in the summer — and what trees and seasons smelled like — how people looked and walked and smelled even. The memory of odors is very rich.” – John Steinbeck author


March Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for March has been posted, check what’s inspiring me this month!


Art: Mira Dancy
Music: Miike Snow – Genghis Khan
Film: About Scout
Fashion: Spring Color Trends – Not Just The Same Old Pastels
Food: The Blood Type Diet
Literature: Own the Wind by Kristen Ashley

“There ain’t no talking to this man, he’s been trying to tell me so. It took awhile to understand the beauty of just letting go.” – Patty Griffin singer-songwriter, musician


February Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for February has been posted, check it out!


Art: Paul McClean
Music: Wynonna & The Big Noise – Things That I Lean On (feat. Jason Isbell)
Film: The Finest Hours
Fashion: Date Night Outfits
Food: Chocolate Covered Strawberries
Literature: Me Before You by Jojo Moyes

“I don’t wanna fall in love if you don’t wanna try, but all that I’ve been thinking of is maybe that you might.” – Say You Love Me by Jessie Ware singer-songwriter Ed Sheeran singer-songwriter, musician


January Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for January has been posted, check it out!


Art: Rex Covington
Music: Cam – Burning House
Film: The Hateful Eight
Fashion: Ski Trip Fashions
Food: Start The Year Off Right – Clean Eating
Literature: Re-Read a book you read in High School, p.s.: I chose, The Bean Trees by Barbara Kingsolver

“I have four children. Two are adopted. I forget which two.”Bob Constantine political correspondent


December Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for December has been posted, check it out!


Art: Heath Satow
Music: Idina Menzel & Michael Bublé – Baby It’s Cold Outside
Film: The Revenant
Fashion: Look Hot When It’s Cold Out
Food: The Perfect Ham
Literature: Garlic and Sapphires: The Secret Life of a Critic in Disguise by Ruth Reichl

“One cannot think well, love well, sleep well, if one has not dined well.” – Virginia Woolf writer
“Pull up a chair. Take a taste. Come join us. Life is so endlessly delicious.” – Ruth Reichl writer, eater, cook


November Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for November has been posted, check it out!


Art: John D. Herz
Music: Selena Gomez – Good For You
Film: Spotlight
Fashion: Rich Fall Colors
Food: Sweet Potato Pie
Literature: The Mayor of MacDougal Street: A Memoir by Dave Van Ronk, Elijah Wald

“Honesty is the cruelest game of all, because not only can you hurt someone, and hurt them to the bone, you can feel self-righteous about it at the same time.”Dave Van Ronk folk singer


October Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for October has been posted, check it out!


Art: Kara Walker
Music: Bryson Tiller – Right My Wrongs
Film: Beast of No Nation
Fashion: Layers
Food: Sweet to Savory Pumpkin
Literature: The Things They Carried by Tim O’Brien

“They will beat their sword into plowshares and their spears into pruning shears. Nation will not lift up sword against nation, nor will they learn war anymore.” ― The Bible Isaiah 2:4 Penned By Isaiah prophet, bible writer


September Imbibe

The new “Imbibe” list for September has been posted, check it out!


Art: Matt Schwartz
Music: Thomas Rhett – Die A Happy Man
Film: Black Mass
Fashion: Pair Sweatshirts and Leather Jackets
Food: Fall Salads
Literature: Outliers: The Story of Success by Malcolm Gladwell

“Practice isn’t the thing you do once you’re good. It’s the thing you do that makes you good.”Malcolm Gladwell journalist, author, speaker